again

Meh meh had been in really low tide recently... maybe his work wasn't going well and he have no outlet for it. He said he need something new to cheer him up. I hope he can really cheer up soon...

Recently he just ignore me, when there is just 2 of us.

I don't know how to help him really. Maybe, this is the time for me to do something for him.

He was so sweet and always be there for me when i had my low tide, I should do the same to him.

I can't always depend on him also right? The main problem is I don't know i should give him more time for his own use or just accompany him more...

I don't know how another person who is not biologically connected to you can make one feel so much. My heart just positively ache when i see him like that... like he is a wisp of smoke and might be gone anytime...

How to be more understanding?

I am just scared, for a really selfish reason, that he'll leave me.

I just can't let him go now... if i can, i want to hold him forever...

I am such a bad girlfriend :(