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身心俱疲。

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我写报告写到好痛苦~厄厄~
原来overview这种东西是最难写的……

原来我曾是个忧郁的文艺青年

旧文，挖出来曝晒下……


等候的时刻




小时候常常需要等爸爸来接我。

期盼着，张望着，而且可以到处野去。

其实我的耐心很短，等不得人的。但是不等人的人，老是有个坏习惯，就是要人等。

后来，我学习如何看一个人的背后，总是静静地等他。

他不知道我在等他，也不知道我是等不得人的。

但是我觉得等候的时刻最美。

美在哪里？



















美在距离。

Yes! they reach Germany and Japan

PosMalaysia does surprise me :)

My post card reach Germany in 8 days and Japan in 9.
I started to envy my postcard. You can travel with such cheap price and to anywhere too.
Just 50 cents...

I so wanna go Taiwan... haha...

真不明白

--------抱怨碎碎念，请勿进-------







真不明白为什么做朋友同学会做到这样…
也许是我自己没有努力去挖资料……但是平时我有什么料都会跟你们说……
在FB上问了那么多次……没有人想答我。
最后真的考试中出来了，就只有我不会做。
真的那么难吗？告诉我一下会死吗？难道我成绩好会害你成绩差吗？
什么我们是一体的有东西要share……
有没有那么一次出门不是因为要凑齐人数才叫我？你们是在收pokemon吗？
有没有那么一次你们替我着想过？如果有的话为什么上一次capstone要做到我摔门出走才听得见我的请求？
你们只担心自己，只求自己好。可不可以不要那么自私？
我只是想好好的当完同学，以后可以有哪些年我们一起奋斗的回忆。
而不是你们都自己走了剩下我一个人在后面……

以前我老是假装没有事，只是做什么都带有一份为别人着想的心情。
但是连咩咩都知道你们恶待我的事情。虽然每次都不说，但是他都可以知道。
你们要知道运气是会用完的。终有一天你们不会再有美美的buddy note来撑腰。
慢慢堆积你们自己的实力吧~

Lazy

Just finished my rubber test. The question is really mind boggling. But anyhow, i did my best (oh did you?). OK, I didn't study as hard as i should do, but I made the best out of it.

I feel really lazy these few days. Don't feel like doing nothing...
Maybe it is because i went back home and miss it so much after i got back...
I was being too carefree i guess...

I should work harder... just 3 more weeks darling. Jia you :)

起司轻蛋糕 Japanese Light Cheesecake

赫赫，那天恩恺一岁生日party的时候烤了个起司蛋糕。用的是萝小姐的食谱（喔萝小姐谢谢你分享那么好吃的蛋糕噢……）。
蛋糕超好吃的而且大受欢迎，让我小小的虚荣起来……呵呵
这里放照片纪念小女子厨房处女show……

食谱在这里


想看蛋糕毛孔的请点击图片

不过烤的时间超久的……而且中间还会有点水水的。可能使用圆盘的关系吧~
我就发挥工程师精神（yes，就是胡搞瞎搞）把整个蛋糕连同烤纸从模里拿出来，然后放在烤炉架上继续小火烤个十分钟。效果是不错，是不太水但是底层焦了……囧。还好只是一点点……没有很苦还是影响味道什么的。

蛋糕上面亮亮的是Samantha家的果酱，apricot口味。

在此特别感谢阿咩帮我翻转蛋糕无数次（装碟比想象中难诶）。
生日派对完结后回房直接病倒……囧……什么身体啊这是……

Massage is the best!

Honestly, massage is the best way to relax.

Not to mention that it's the best way to make people feel loved :D

I am at fault.

Well, I am really at fault.
I didn't organize the thing well, and so that is my fault.
I realise that it is not fair for me to drag you into this mess.
The next time i will fare better. I'll think more before I act.
Hopefully i can be a better person...

Hooray! Surprise Cards!!!

This morning when I came back from Japanese class I check the mailbox. I know I shouldn't receive anymore postcards because I haven't get the chance to buy and send postcard. But guess what i found? Not one but TWO postcards!

One of them is from Bei Jing.

It is slightly longish so i guess it's from a postcard book.

Aaaannnndd another one from Colorado, USA.

Both card have very beautiful stamp, and there are so many stamps. I was so happy when i pick up the cards because the stamps.

Summary of the stamps I've got from Postcrossing.

This one has Czech lion crest stamp and some Building stamp on it, Singpore stamps and Finland stamp. The fun part is on the Lion Crest one, there's a line of song written on it ("Kde domov mui?") with the score... Cute. I googled it and found out that it's Czech national anthem.

This set is from China, Taiwan, Belarus and USA.

The postcrosser from USA had attach 2 state's stamps. Which are really beautiful.

China's birdy stamps are superb too.

Belarus one features a badger like animal called martes martes and red tulips.

Martes martes (again, wiki-ed) is a type of animal call Pineten from badger family.

Taiwan stamp featured one of my favorite trees, Delonix aka 凤凰木.

This postage mark is cute because it carved out the old street of SanXia in Taiwan. Apparently the postcrosser sent it from the post office in the street. Why can't Melacca do that?

111111

111111

It's triple chopstick day!!!

如果我有一亿

在论坛看到的……

着种问题很无聊但却最能看清自己最想要什么。

我最先想到的是买一块地建一间屋子，不用很大够用就好。

有一张很舒服的床，很多窗口很明亮的房间。

养一条狗和一条猫，屋子的花园能让狗狗跑来跑去。

去上当年我想学但是觉得赚不到吃的课程（服装设计和搞艺术之类的）充实自己。

买一辆马赛第给老爸，老妈要买什么包包鞋子的就买给她。

和最爱的人开一间餐馆（他的愿望，不是我的），得空的时候到处去旅行。

其实不太难实现。而且就算我突然有一亿，我应该不知道要怎么花吧……呵呵。

平时习惯了斤斤计较那几分钱，让我的物质欲降得很低。

有时和爸爸妈妈出去会觉得好奢侈，吃得用的都是好多钱……

然后很内疚花了他们的钱，希望有一天能赚回来给他们花……

Chicken Soup

If I make chicken soup for everyone; who will make chicken soup for me?

If you have more than enough, why are you getting chicken soup from me?

I should stop whining or being a wimp. Just face it, i need to start on my FYP.

First day of holiday

Actually i don't know why i didn't go home. My thesis really wasn't that urgent. Also don't know why i didn't visit Melaka with Meh. Maybe i just feel like i want to be really alone for a few days... settle down a bit... think on what I should do...

The morning was spent in Aunt's salon with roomies. Both have a new haircut. Back in hostel, it starting to feel awfully quiet. Wonder if staying outside is like this, with little or no noise, but the sound of rain.

The hostel didn't provide food this week for me... so i have to rely on my own food supply.

I think i made a wise decision to buy the navel orange instead of normal orange. They really tasted heavenly. Sweet and juicy, the sound of separating each of them makes me happy. Ate plain oats with nothing but hot water as dinner. Surprisingly, it didn't taste as bad as i thought. It has a nice raisin smell since i put it in the container Meh used to put raisin last time. Just regret that i didn't take more oats from Meh... haha.

Will try to make my days here useful. Laundry tomorrow, visit Sam and En Khai the day after. Thesis in between... ha. Just need to wait till Monday, and Meh will be back. Feel so insecure without him, but can't depend on him too much :)

SF Night

Yet another year of it...

I don't know why the feeling is not there for me anymore, it just feel like another dinner for me.

A lot of things become plain after 4 years. Each year has their stories, and not all of them are happy one. I used to be really concern about this program, but the urgency and the feel wasn't there for me anymore.

To be honest, I am glad that things turn out OK this year. There are so many undetermind factors before that. The bus was late, we stood in the cold wet rainy day for a good half an hour. Somebody got so unhappy about it and planned not to attend. I know it's frustrating and everything, not just you are standing there... I was neither happy about waiting and wasting time like that nor understand why the juniors asked us to go to bus stop so early. It wasn't much fun.

This is just an emo rant, i'll be fine in no time. I really feel down these few days, after Deepavali holiday's much fun... I miss home...

I think i'll just go and eat a few rice cracker, always cheer me up like wonders :)

One of my friend

She's a nice girl with a ability like superwomen.

But why can't she love herself more?
I really hope that she have more self esteem so her family wouldn't treat her for granted.

She just put too much of her life and hope in somebody else. So she end up being a pushy person that not much people like.

Hope that things work out for her. Everything.

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But from another point of view, maybe this is what she wanted. *shrugs*

简单的幸福

真不敢相信，我就被3个面包骗走了。

每天吃食堂的食物，虽然makcik们煮得很好吃，但吃就了还是会吃腻。

所以今天下午就任性地跑去去泉利附近那里吃咖喱云吞面。

面不是很豪华，也没有鲍鱼鱼翅，但是吃在嘴里那种浓浓的咖喱味真的是让人幸福得要飘起来。

爽口弹牙的云吞面配搭豆芽，绝对可以吃下一大碗。

而晚上咩出门的时候，刚巧看到1U新开的Lavender，就买了三个面包试试。

一打开看到是我平时嫌太贵不舍得买的（是，我是小气鬼）铜锣烧，就眼冒爱心了。

虽然很甜不太中意还很小很贵，但是很软Q而且蛋香浓郁。

还有我最爱的柴鱼面包~ （surprise!）超开心的。

最后是那种外面有一层甜甜的酥皮的面包，看起来普普通通。

原本以为会很甜，但是没有料到中间的起司中和了甜味让整个面包好好吃~

咩咩先咬掉旁边所以可以直接吃到内馅也是让我很开心……

总之，有人喂养是最开心的! 简简单单的小事中体悟到幸福是最棒的了。

This week ~

This week will be a busy week, but somehow i am still lazying... haha.

I just went to the clinic to remove the cyst. I think it would be nice if the Dr tell me what she's going to do before she does whatever she need to do. But anyhow, after 10 minutes i'm out with all the gauze. The process itself hurts a bit but it is necessary for the healing. Guess i'll have to take extra care for few weeks.

Anyhow, things turn cheerful when i returned to college and decided to drop by the mail box. Found 2 post cards! One from Czech Republic and another from Finland. It's nice to receive snailmail now, since it's so rare. And the stamps are really wonderful XD

here they are

Czech Republic, Lanskroun Town Hall.

The photo is bit blur coz i took it with my phone cam...

Finland postcards... Tulips with babies... haha

More on recently

Wakakaaa... there is so much to talk about recently...

Today i received a mail from Postcrossing website stating that my post card had travel 14,127Km (or, all the way across Pacific ocean) to reach West Coast of USA!!!

Hooray! Our Post office still works! And it's only like 10 working days after i post it... I am truly amazed... (Yes, this sound kinda pathetic, but I was expecting it to reach in 1 month. After all, nobody will be called snail mail for no reason right?)

<- All the way.. to America...teehee XD

here is Postcrossing Website : http://www.postcrossing.com/

and my homepage on Postcrossing...

I'm sure that there will be people asking what is Post crossing... let's see the defination from its own webzine: -

The goal of this project is to allow people to receive postcards from all over the world, for free. Well, almost free! The main idea is that: if you send a postcard, you will receive at least one back from a random Postcrosser from somewhere in the world.

Sound's great right? And I hope i can get some awesome stamps via this channel XD

Recently

There's SO much to say recently... haha

Firstly i finally bought a phoooonnneee!!! Mah baby is a Samsung Galaxy Mini.

I thought i am going to be happy when i can switch from my old phone. Strangely i feel a pang of loss when i got the new phone. It's a bit like, aww, i miss the cute little small phone design and the new phone feels so WEIRD in the palm, and the ringtone is WEIRD and the alarm is also WEIRD.

Ended up I am more nostalgic than I thought I am. I adapt to change slowly no matter how bad the old phone had been... It had been in a really bad condition and typing msg is like a chore... But I still love it even after i bought the new phone... There are just too much of cute stuff i need to keep inside it...

It's too late now, i need to go to sleep now... Nite everyone.

here is mah baby

Quarrel

It is good to quarrel sometimes really...

It clarifies the disagreement. If the quarrel is rational...

倦怠期

倦怠期，生人勿近。

有时候觉得烦了累了，也不想和别人说。

说了又怎样……能解决事情吗。

说给你听，你又了解吗？

OK. I know I am being irrational now.

After thinking a bit, i know i wasn't being man-handled.

Meh is a good guy, I know that, deep down.

But I was just constantly angry against him because of like 2 weeks of not so much contact?

I was being irrational and snappy, I know.

And I snapped at Mom's word for nothing just now.

Why my anger just so near boiling point these days?

Am I going to be an emo kid even thou teenager has nothing to do with me now?

Lord, please help me to feel fulfill and at peace, even when I am alone.

Please help me to be patient and kind to my family.

Please show me the way to be emotionally independent. Amen.

Confusion

Sometimes I am so confuse with myself and you.

You always tell me that: 'That's the way I work.'

I couldn't help but to wonder, am I being man-handled?

Maybe I am acting like immature brat, but all the short conversation and no-contact over the holiday makes me feel so insecure. I know you're busy and really under a lot of stress and I understand how bad publishing papers can be. I am trying to be understanding and hopefully become a support for you. Just that I really don't know how long I can stand to play this one-man-act before i crack up.

Please honey, contribute a bit in the conversation.

I don't want our relationship to be a dead puddle of water like this.

Please come up with some ideas. Nothing fancy really.

Just convince me that you still care... Please.

爱情之所以为爱情

其一

如果有一天，人类发明了可以100%模拟拥抱的机器，那爱情这种东西会不会被取代？

就像书籍和cd这种东西一样渐渐式微，慢慢凋零？

不再需要靠别人来获得拥抱，是不是代表一个人能真正的独立？

其二

有人说，孤独不是罪，寂寞是。

既然说人类是一种天生被设计为群居动物的东西，寂寞就是一种原罪？

When we talk about love

We went to the mall and bought a box of strawberries.

I told meh meh that strawberries tasted like your lips. I am not lying.

I shouldn't be so depending on him, actually. But it is hard to do so.

If I am too independent, he'll feel that he wasn't necessary for me.

But when I am too clingy, even me gets tired of myself.

The point is about balance. But what is the equilibrium of love and how to achieve it?

The strawberries had some beautiful red luster on it. It has kind of a sheen on the surface.

We had those berries on the car. And we stopped the car to take a photo of those beautiful fruits.

The surface is so succulent that when you press it, juice will explode out from the fruit.

The car was filled with real strawberry smell... which really reminds me of love...

I hope every thing will turn out to be better for my Meh.

I feel unhappy to see him being so trapped.

again

Meh meh had been in really low tide recently... maybe his work wasn't going well and he have no outlet for it. He said he need something new to cheer him up. I hope he can really cheer up soon...

Recently he just ignore me, when there is just 2 of us.

I don't know how to help him really. Maybe, this is the time for me to do something for him.

He was so sweet and always be there for me when i had my low tide, I should do the same to him.

I can't always depend on him also right? The main problem is I don't know i should give him more time for his own use or just accompany him more...

I don't know how another person who is not biologically connected to you can make one feel so much. My heart just positively ache when i see him like that... like he is a wisp of smoke and might be gone anytime...

How to be more understanding?

I am just scared, for a really selfish reason, that he'll leave me.

I just can't let him go now... if i can, i want to hold him forever...

I am such a bad girlfriend :(

oh dear, a blog page again?!

yes indeed, it's a new blog page. I know i have lotsa blogpage already, including the baidu chinese one, and muse atelier together with Panda. But well... seems like both of them are dead (i am not a good blogger)

Now, why this page is born then? It started with a bored afternoon. I was learning webdesign by Dreamweaver. Then, at one point, the tutorial ask me to get a website hoster. Thinking that blogger is one type of website hoster (which, is utterly wrong), i got one page for myself. Only 15minutes afterwards i knew that i was mistaken...But this blog just sticks :)

So, maybe i can talk about my little project then, cause i am sure that this blog should be well hidden under thousands, no, millions of blogs. And yeah, i am a bit lonely in the room now, spending the good Saturday by myself, feeling too lazy for anything else.

I wanted to make a site to brush up my webdesign skill... to familiarize with all the web language. And its name will be the bunny hole. Haha. Sounds very cute and childish. But that what I am :)

Hopefully I can make a good website and hopefully i'll get some approval from the webhosting site by tomorrow :) i can't wait to get started... hehe