最近越来越爱走路的的感觉，就算路径的选择比在大学少了，但更爱流汗的感觉。
想在跑步机上快走（我绝对不说是跑步，我的程度太丢脸了）好几天了，但是天气不好，跑步机被拿来当晒衣架了。囧。
跑步（ok拉，就假装是跑步）的时候，意识是很集中的。我就用这种极度集中的心情小小地生了一场气。该怨的不该怨的统统发泄。跑完精神很好，昨晚开始低落的心情被治好了。人生果然需要阴阳调和，呵呵。
现在脑袋里想着慢慢成型的画。其实创作就是让想法自己长大，到了一个时候它长好了，我才慢慢地把它剥出来。好期待。
Monday, December 17, 2012
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
字句残渣
1。
我和他就像放风筝。我是风筝，他是放风筝的人。我在上头可以看见世界，看似自由，但身后总有一条细细的绳线掌握在他手上。有时候风一吹，我可以乘风而去，但是却不忍心看见他失望的眼睛。
2。
我看了挪威的森林几次。我才发觉原来直子一直都不爱渡边，如果她爱的话，就不会对他说你在东京有女朋友的话要对我说。
3。
FUCK, 好好的码字码到一半，老板打电话来叫我做东西。明明心情已经那么像大便。
叫天不应叫地不灵，叫男朋友不应，老爸还叫我打我最讨厌的马来文官方书信。想独处到要开电影，听他们说话哪种安静的的声音。还有一大堆衣服没洗，还没有冲凉。knsknsknsknsknskns。又闷，又囧，还颈肩酸痛。
我和他就像放风筝。我是风筝，他是放风筝的人。我在上头可以看见世界，看似自由，但身后总有一条细细的绳线掌握在他手上。有时候风一吹，我可以乘风而去，但是却不忍心看见他失望的眼睛。
2。
我看了挪威的森林几次。我才发觉原来直子一直都不爱渡边，如果她爱的话，就不会对他说你在东京有女朋友的话要对我说。
3。
FUCK, 好好的码字码到一半，老板打电话来叫我做东西。明明心情已经那么像大便。
叫天不应叫地不灵，叫男朋友不应，老爸还叫我打我最讨厌的马来文官方书信。想独处到要开电影，听他们说话哪种安静的的声音。还有一大堆衣服没洗，还没有冲凉。knsknsknsknsknskns。又闷，又囧，还颈肩酸痛。
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Monday, September 24, 2012
There is an illness called Cold
I'm sick. I am having a cold.
Somehow having cold always makes my heart feels bad. Like it is going to say: 'Fuck this shit job, I quit!'
Yeah, like it is going to stop anytime.
But I am still reluctant to go to sleep. Bad girl.
Somehow having cold always makes my heart feels bad. Like it is going to say: 'Fuck this shit job, I quit!'
Yeah, like it is going to stop anytime.
But I am still reluctant to go to sleep. Bad girl.
Friday, September 7, 2012
近来可好？
标题是随便乱搭的。
想要知道什么是挫败感，回家就知道了。
没有一件事可以好好做好。
没有一样事情可以做对。
好想在脸书上写出来，但是这样招摇不是我的风格。
还好不太多人懂这里，就像我每天躲在房间里。
什么事我都可以坚强安慰自己，但是对于自己的家人我就是不能够控制。
还要我怎样呢？为什么每次都要安排我的人生。
不要以为我不知道为什么你老是催我到新加坡去，为的还是妹妹的学费。
到底要我怎样？到底要我怎样？？？
做公司的东西我不介意，但是我也是有情绪的。做工回到家里已经很累，要帮忙你为什么还要一直被你提醒我没有专心？我只想赶快做好，然后去休息。有错吗？
你的工作要做的，要仔细，你要告诉我。至少详细的事情要告诉我，不要每次等我做好了才告诉我不是你要的。那你为什么不一早就告诉我？磨炼我？你想养怎样的小孩出来？忍者？
我不做也是罪人，生气也是罪人。
算了，我发脾气都没有用，发什么脾气都没有用。
我把我的想法说出来，就说我变了，变小气了。
我不过是长大了，有自己的生活，有自己的想法。
可以不要每天我回家，帮忙这样那样后，还要嫌弃这嫌弃那。又要提醒我你们老了，要帮忙你们，每次说的像我在家里翘脚。我的人生里，已经花了二十年，做最善解人意的女儿，事事为你们着想，不顶嘴不吵架。为什么？我为了得到你们的认可努力了这样久，从小想要从你的影子了爬出来。然后？就是这样？我现在最怕的就是听到你说，我要打单给谁谁……
这些负面的情绪要发泄出来。堵在心里像毒药，说出来只会伤感情。
如果有一天我得了忧郁症，原因只有这个。
想要知道什么是挫败感，回家就知道了。
没有一件事可以好好做好。
没有一样事情可以做对。
好想在脸书上写出来，但是这样招摇不是我的风格。
还好不太多人懂这里，就像我每天躲在房间里。
什么事我都可以坚强安慰自己，但是对于自己的家人我就是不能够控制。
还要我怎样呢？为什么每次都要安排我的人生。
不要以为我不知道为什么你老是催我到新加坡去，为的还是妹妹的学费。
到底要我怎样？到底要我怎样？？？
做公司的东西我不介意，但是我也是有情绪的。做工回到家里已经很累，要帮忙你为什么还要一直被你提醒我没有专心？我只想赶快做好，然后去休息。有错吗？
你的工作要做的，要仔细，你要告诉我。至少详细的事情要告诉我，不要每次等我做好了才告诉我不是你要的。那你为什么不一早就告诉我？磨炼我？你想养怎样的小孩出来？忍者？
我不做也是罪人，生气也是罪人。
算了，我发脾气都没有用，发什么脾气都没有用。
我把我的想法说出来，就说我变了，变小气了。
我不过是长大了，有自己的生活，有自己的想法。
可以不要每天我回家，帮忙这样那样后，还要嫌弃这嫌弃那。又要提醒我你们老了，要帮忙你们，每次说的像我在家里翘脚。我的人生里，已经花了二十年，做最善解人意的女儿，事事为你们着想，不顶嘴不吵架。为什么？我为了得到你们的认可努力了这样久，从小想要从你的影子了爬出来。然后？就是这样？我现在最怕的就是听到你说，我要打单给谁谁……
这些负面的情绪要发泄出来。堵在心里像毒药，说出来只会伤感情。
如果有一天我得了忧郁症，原因只有这个。
Sunday, August 26, 2012
When you can walk, don't run.
Be patient my dear.
You are almost 24 yrs old. At the lowest point of your life. With no money, no connections, no achievements and definitely nothing to boost about. I know, it sucks.
I started to understand the world a little bit more. No longer the try too hard little girl. It will be OK.
Don't worry, everything will work out by itself.
You are almost 24 yrs old. At the lowest point of your life. With no money, no connections, no achievements and definitely nothing to boost about. I know, it sucks.
I started to understand the world a little bit more. No longer the try too hard little girl. It will be OK.
Don't worry, everything will work out by itself.
Monday, August 13, 2012
Towards a new journey
学长告诉过我，emo只是一个时期，是会过去的。不需要讨厌那个时候的自己，因为emo也没什么不好的。
老实说，我最近不太开心。只是一直在逼自己要接受。虽然是在自己家里，虽然有人照顾好吃好住，但是就是少了一点东西。不懂自己在那里烦什么，只是觉得很烦燥很烦躁。然后又闷在心里不能发作。郁闷久了就会脾气不好。
工作超闷，回到家里还要面对另一个大老板。其实爸爸没有什么不对，我为家里出分离是应该的。我不知道为什么自己一直不能好好地和家人相处。只是觉得很烦燥。家人好心为我打算，循循善诱我也不听。我是怎么了。到底少了些什么？
就是这样一直对自己说要忍耐要忍耐。前途茫茫不知遥遥如何是好，还是要咬牙走下去。回头看自己原来可以这样潇洒自由是因为有人愿意任劳任怨看起养育我的责任。总觉得很累很沉重，但是却不能对任何人说。因为大家都背负了很多很多，像我这样的草莓是没有人会同情的。同样的，就像我自己说的，只要我在努力一点，跑得再快一点，再用力一点就可以了。时间是会过去的。你要记得这几年来学的教训，不要卖弄，不要计较，做多一点。要人家尊重你就要做得让人尊重。人家敬佩你不会说，觉得你没用也不会说。没有遇上无良老板就很好了，工作轻松也是一个优点。
低潮到了一个极点就会慢慢往上爬。你不要忘记自己的目标。思维是在远方但眼睛是在原地，脚要站在地上，用手耕耘。从低做起，知道吗？加油！
老实说，我最近不太开心。只是一直在逼自己要接受。虽然是在自己家里，虽然有人照顾好吃好住，但是就是少了一点东西。不懂自己在那里烦什么，只是觉得很烦燥很烦躁。然后又闷在心里不能发作。郁闷久了就会脾气不好。
工作超闷，回到家里还要面对另一个大老板。其实爸爸没有什么不对，我为家里出分离是应该的。我不知道为什么自己一直不能好好地和家人相处。只是觉得很烦燥。家人好心为我打算，循循善诱我也不听。我是怎么了。到底少了些什么？
就是这样一直对自己说要忍耐要忍耐。前途茫茫不知遥遥如何是好，还是要咬牙走下去。回头看自己原来可以这样潇洒自由是因为有人愿意任劳任怨看起养育我的责任。总觉得很累很沉重，但是却不能对任何人说。因为大家都背负了很多很多，像我这样的草莓是没有人会同情的。同样的，就像我自己说的，只要我在努力一点，跑得再快一点，再用力一点就可以了。时间是会过去的。你要记得这几年来学的教训，不要卖弄，不要计较，做多一点。要人家尊重你就要做得让人尊重。人家敬佩你不会说，觉得你没用也不会说。没有遇上无良老板就很好了，工作轻松也是一个优点。
低潮到了一个极点就会慢慢往上爬。你不要忘记自己的目标。思维是在远方但眼睛是在原地，脚要站在地上，用手耕耘。从低做起，知道吗？加油！
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
很奇怪
作人真的很奇怪。
有意见也不好，没有意见也不好。
直接也不好，爱兜圈子也不好。
少和人接触最好。
我的性格，真得越孤僻越好。
少和人来往就少了很多麻烦。
认识的都是陌生人，至少大家都会客客气气的。
不能避免的需要长久在一起，就尽量吧。
这样妖异又怪癖，不圆滑也不可爱，最好是到深林里当隐士。
难道不能返璞归真吗。难道就需要这样多的算计吗？
在现实生活中已经有太多顾虑，还好在网上还有一方净土。
想说什么就是什么，不要太在意会怎样怎样。
真的是太好了。
有意见也不好，没有意见也不好。
直接也不好，爱兜圈子也不好。
少和人接触最好。
我的性格，真得越孤僻越好。
少和人来往就少了很多麻烦。
认识的都是陌生人，至少大家都会客客气气的。
不能避免的需要长久在一起，就尽量吧。
这样妖异又怪癖，不圆滑也不可爱，最好是到深林里当隐士。
难道不能返璞归真吗。难道就需要这样多的算计吗？
在现实生活中已经有太多顾虑，还好在网上还有一方净土。
想说什么就是什么，不要太在意会怎样怎样。
真的是太好了。
我在高雄遇见彩虹
如题，照片拍不到。就在高速公路上云雨和阳光的交接点。大约也只有一分钟。也许就是这样，最美丽的事物通常都不会持久。持久的风景都是属于化学工厂或高楼建筑之类的，就连稻田一年里也只有那几个月是漂亮的。是因为这样，所以最近越来越多人拼命买好的相机，来留住瞬间的永恒吗？
在高雄的佛陀纪念馆，一下车大家马上被雄伟的纪念馆吸引。怎知一回头，一道更高更雄伟的山脉延绵过天际，云朵顺着它的肩头滚过。所以说，最美丽的风景也许就在身后，只是看我们记不记得回头。
看到这些漂亮的景色，我能想到的却只有你。有时想想这样的人生真的是幸福又悲哀。
一半荆棘一半玫瑰啊~
在高雄的佛陀纪念馆，一下车大家马上被雄伟的纪念馆吸引。怎知一回头，一道更高更雄伟的山脉延绵过天际，云朵顺着它的肩头滚过。所以说，最美丽的风景也许就在身后，只是看我们记不记得回头。
看到这些漂亮的景色，我能想到的却只有你。有时想想这样的人生真的是幸福又悲哀。
一半荆棘一半玫瑰啊~
Monday, July 16, 2012
关于爱情 again
其实这种title我实在不应该写，因为只谈过一次恋爱的人说什么都是天真的。
我只是觉得我的爱情，其实和很多人所拥有的很不一样。
而我为什么能够了解和忍受，我自己也不知道。
有时候觉得自己和另一半比较像可以牵手和拥抱的朋友。我们适合在一起生活，但是远距离所需要的甜言蜜语是我们怎样都做不到的。什么每天不可以失联，一定要讲电话之类的，对于咩咩是一种很奇怪很假的东西。但是我们还是勉强做到了。他每天听我说一些五四三，然后回答不到几个字，而我就尽量不要逼他讲话。其实我可以完全不理当作是我暂时从女朋友的责任中放假，但是就是会没来由的很生气（其实什么都不需要报告，可以不理对方，不是很好很自由吗？）。我自己其实也不明白自己在想什么……
这样子奇怪的方式，至少可以让大家都能稍稍满足。
这样的话，有些看官可能会说，诶那你为什么还忍受他？当然我也试过蛮横的撒娇但没有用。有时候真的会怀疑自己，怀疑对方，种种负面的想法会接踵而来。但是不知道为什么，当面对面见到时，就会将过去几个月的忧郁和怨恨统统忘记。爱情里有太多的自私和贪念，独占欲，色欲，不稳定性之类的。像我这种有控制欲和洁癖的人不应该沦陷，不然就会走火入魔。但是被爱和爱人这种需求却该死的早早就写于人性中，想改都难。我的性格偏执，一旦走入就难以翻身。很多人在我身边走过，我都是以一种抽离的感情去看待。但是但我一踏入爱情，我就真的难以抽身。现在的我还可以像当初我想象的，一旦不和就可以转身离开吗？
其实写了这么多，我只是希望咩咩可以稍稍多依赖我，让我觉得被需要。但是对于一个少年老成，而且也不是个少年了的男人来说，示弱真的有点难。最重要的是，我知道我现在这些忧愁不算什么，只要能再见面就可以解决。
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Saturday, June 30, 2012
突然了解
为什么人家说上大学的时候是最快乐的。
因为：
1。想做什么就做什么。
2。没有人会说你不积极上进，那个每天不上课的家伙还不是一样安稳毕业。
3。有一次我睡到十一点起来，没有人说我，我也竟然没有愧疚感。如果在家里的话是一种非常不可思议的事情。
4。喜欢做什么就有什么机会。真的机会特别多。
5。明明只是一点点小小的成就，大家会把你当神。在家里我永远是虫。
6。可以自己定扫地，洗衣，洗碗的时间。
7。伙食份量少/不好吃，可以减肥。（其实也是坏处）
8。永远有人陪说话。回到家里就只是对着电脑。说多一点就让人嫌吵。
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不是说在家里不快乐。现在的我应该是很快乐的。
不愁三餐，又可以去旅行，什么都有人当靠山，不愁钱。
但是没有成就感。什么都不是我的功劳。特别寂寞。
明明我是一个很幸福的人。我在烦恼什么？
没有一样东西是我的，房里的抽屉妈妈随时能打开。我觉得特别没有隐私。
我的摆设我妈可以随意乱动，因为打扫是他做的。
有时很想发狂对他说可不可以不要管我就让我自己去打扫吧。我要住在猪窝里是我的权利。
但这样的话要我怎样说出口。房子是妈妈的，我身上用的穿的那一样不是他的。
我有权利发脾气吗？
总觉得家里很多小事一点一点地让我快要发狂。
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有时觉得老爸这样栽培我，到最后我也不是个小小公司里的小职员。
真是很逊。
因为：
1。想做什么就做什么。
2。没有人会说你不积极上进，那个每天不上课的家伙还不是一样安稳毕业。
3。有一次我睡到十一点起来，没有人说我，我也竟然没有愧疚感。如果在家里的话是一种非常不可思议的事情。
4。喜欢做什么就有什么机会。真的机会特别多。
5。明明只是一点点小小的成就，大家会把你当神。在家里我永远是虫。
6。可以自己定扫地，洗衣，洗碗的时间。
7。伙食份量少/不好吃，可以减肥。（其实也是坏处）
8。永远有人陪说话。回到家里就只是对着电脑。说多一点就让人嫌吵。
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不是说在家里不快乐。现在的我应该是很快乐的。
不愁三餐，又可以去旅行，什么都有人当靠山，不愁钱。
但是没有成就感。什么都不是我的功劳。特别寂寞。
明明我是一个很幸福的人。我在烦恼什么？
没有一样东西是我的，房里的抽屉妈妈随时能打开。我觉得特别没有隐私。
我的摆设我妈可以随意乱动，因为打扫是他做的。
有时很想发狂对他说可不可以不要管我就让我自己去打扫吧。我要住在猪窝里是我的权利。
但这样的话要我怎样说出口。房子是妈妈的，我身上用的穿的那一样不是他的。
我有权利发脾气吗？
总觉得家里很多小事一点一点地让我快要发狂。
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有时觉得老爸这样栽培我，到最后我也不是个小小公司里的小职员。
真是很逊。
Monday, June 25, 2012
Uneasy (RANT)
Well... getting job offer, buying a new car and going Taiwan. Everything crushed into this very very small and short week...
I really feel depress when I come home. No kidding. I feel so trapped here and there is so much obligation.
Gone is the day I can just mind my own business and do what I want at the time I see fit.
Everything have to be done by my parents way. That's a bit sickening.
I know talking like this is ungrateful. But man, I am like 24 now? Gosh, give me some freedom...
Anyhow, this is just rant. RANT RANT RANT.
And I actually hate working so soon. The heck I need to squeeze damn lot of thing in this short period.
Some more getting a dead end job. I am so damn sure I am going to run away as soon as possible.
But looking on the bright side, my manager is actually a very nice person... :D Just need to stay away from the regional manager, too much big words and small action.
Coming back to JB then I'll be working 2 jobs, literally. Hardly any personal leisure time for me. Sigh. But what to do. It is time to contribute...
Anyways, I should go pack now = X =
Yes, you'll be fine...
I really feel depress when I come home. No kidding. I feel so trapped here and there is so much obligation.
Gone is the day I can just mind my own business and do what I want at the time I see fit.
Everything have to be done by my parents way. That's a bit sickening.
I know talking like this is ungrateful. But man, I am like 24 now? Gosh, give me some freedom...
Anyhow, this is just rant. RANT RANT RANT.
And I actually hate working so soon. The heck I need to squeeze damn lot of thing in this short period.
Some more getting a dead end job. I am so damn sure I am going to run away as soon as possible.
But looking on the bright side, my manager is actually a very nice person... :D Just need to stay away from the regional manager, too much big words and small action.
Coming back to JB then I'll be working 2 jobs, literally. Hardly any personal leisure time for me. Sigh. But what to do. It is time to contribute...
Anyways, I should go pack now = X =
Yes, you'll be fine...
Sunday, June 24, 2012
毕业感言
我，应该算是毕业了吧？
(在圣陶沙骑脚车，虽然脱队但其实还蛮开心的）
同班同学答应一起去新加坡旅行，也去了。中途种种事件让我有点emo。
其实也没有什么，问题还是老问题。
我们本来就是不同的人，被逼迫地凑在一起，还很不幸的要扮演恩爱的一家。
其实我一直都不太在这个团队里，多我不多，少我不少。
经历过了种种事件，四年的感情，在离别的时候为什么我并没有伤感的感觉，只是松了一口气呢？也许在这里没有一个和我非常契合的人。在这四年里，我一直觉得就算在同学中，我都是孤单的。勉勉强强地维持了四年，分手的时候居然有解脱的感觉。
和同学个人的时候都还好，但是到了那个大团体的时候，还是会觉得很不自在。
但是很庆幸，在宿舍找到很棒的室友，也有很照顾我的同学（谢谢你哦hocky）。
还有很多很对味的好朋友，学长学姐学弟学妹之类等等的。真正的不舍是从那里来的。
在我有难关的时候是你们伸出援手，是你们照顾我。每天吃饭的那种快乐等等……
还有一直都在我身边的咩咩。我真的很庆幸一路有你的陪伴。
现在离开了你，真的觉得很孤单。但是我会好好照顾自己的！
就是这样吧？
毕业后很多东西接踵而来，很忙。
有时我觉得我不能够应付这些。
很神奇的，之前我祷告，我所担心的事情，全部自己解决了。
工作自动找上门来，平时很贵的行李箱刚好大减价所以可以用超低价买到好料，连衣服都乘大减价买了……
感谢主，真的是太神奇了。当我祷告后，我所想的，所要的，统统自己实现了。
希望接下来会顺顺利利……
同班同学答应一起去新加坡旅行，也去了。中途种种事件让我有点emo。
其实也没有什么，问题还是老问题。
我们本来就是不同的人，被逼迫地凑在一起，还很不幸的要扮演恩爱的一家。
其实我一直都不太在这个团队里，多我不多，少我不少。
经历过了种种事件，四年的感情，在离别的时候为什么我并没有伤感的感觉，只是松了一口气呢？也许在这里没有一个和我非常契合的人。在这四年里，我一直觉得就算在同学中，我都是孤单的。勉勉强强地维持了四年，分手的时候居然有解脱的感觉。
和同学个人的时候都还好，但是到了那个大团体的时候，还是会觉得很不自在。
夜景好漂漂亮
但是很庆幸，在宿舍找到很棒的室友，也有很照顾我的同学（谢谢你哦hocky）。
还有很多很对味的好朋友，学长学姐学弟学妹之类等等的。真正的不舍是从那里来的。
在我有难关的时候是你们伸出援手，是你们照顾我。每天吃饭的那种快乐等等……
还有一直都在我身边的咩咩。我真的很庆幸一路有你的陪伴。
现在离开了你，真的觉得很孤单。但是我会好好照顾自己的！
就是这样吧？
毕业后很多东西接踵而来，很忙。
有时我觉得我不能够应付这些。
很神奇的，之前我祷告，我所担心的事情，全部自己解决了。
工作自动找上门来，平时很贵的行李箱刚好大减价所以可以用超低价买到好料，连衣服都乘大减价买了……
感谢主，真的是太神奇了。当我祷告后，我所想的，所要的，统统自己实现了。
希望接下来会顺顺利利……
Monday, May 28, 2012
Lesson taught by couple seat
Normally Meh and I are sane enough to avoid these extra costs couple-trap. Since student pass give you a good RM5 discount, and the film is the same anyway, we just never tried couple seat. But being me, I always rant on wanting to try it with him. Then on Sunday, we just finally went crazy and say: 'Yes! We wanna try out couple seats!'
OK, I am at the wrong side to actually have expectation about a seat. I was expecting a seat that at least allow him to put an arm over me, but nope, not feasible. The seat is so hard and straight on the back. The only difference is the absence of the place u put your arms. I tried lean over onto his shoulder, nope, bad posture = aching everywhere. Finally I sighed (and I feel the disappointment from Meh also) and be contented to just warm my hand on his belly, over his jacket, your pervs. I suspect this non-cuddle-able design is specially requested by the cinema so the lovebirds wouldn't advance from huggle to something else.
So we finally conclude that couple seat is worse than our most cheapskate date and it is more expensive! Cheapskate date normally equals to watching downloaded movie on his computer (cuddling or not depends), some food, comments on the movie midway etc. So I started to become skeptical about all the myth on couple-quest. Like you've got to have a diamond ring, or getting expensive gifts on Valentine's.
And at the end of the movie, Meh and I looked at each other and literally laugh out loud for our stupidity.
Cheers to disappointments in life.
OK, I am at the wrong side to actually have expectation about a seat. I was expecting a seat that at least allow him to put an arm over me, but nope, not feasible. The seat is so hard and straight on the back. The only difference is the absence of the place u put your arms. I tried lean over onto his shoulder, nope, bad posture = aching everywhere. Finally I sighed (and I feel the disappointment from Meh also) and be contented to just warm my hand on his belly, over his jacket, your pervs. I suspect this non-cuddle-able design is specially requested by the cinema so the lovebirds wouldn't advance from huggle to something else.
So we finally conclude that couple seat is worse than our most cheapskate date and it is more expensive! Cheapskate date normally equals to watching downloaded movie on his computer (cuddling or not depends), some food, comments on the movie midway etc. So I started to become skeptical about all the myth on couple-quest. Like you've got to have a diamond ring, or getting expensive gifts on Valentine's.
And at the end of the movie, Meh and I looked at each other and literally laugh out loud for our stupidity.
Cheers to disappointments in life.
Sunday, May 20, 2012
It's raining
It's raining and I'm tired of staring at the computer screen.
oh dearest why can't you come over and hug me?
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aha, I was being lyrical. So tired these few days... I only really want a good hug from you darling. I realized that Platonic love isn't for me. I prefer physical touch and warmth from my lover. Cuddling is the best invention even before slice bread. Of course I wasn't saying the spiritual part should be absent. Mark Zuckenberg is married yesterday. I really envy them. That was some sort of my dream actually. Two person, working hard for themselves, then got married and walk the journey together. His girlfriend looks like a smart girl, with her own career. It's rare to see millionaire with a partner that doesn't look like movie stars. Maybe I was touch by the pair because they act like really normal people (because they are?). Honestly, looking at them makes me wanna get married. LOL.
Talk about recent things. Life was busy. And i have a lot of things due tomorrow. I feel like a walking zombie now (right, sitting zombie. Haven't move this butt for a week). Somehow I just feel sick to do all the project papers, assignments, thesis. I just want a relax weekend with someone I love. Friends, family or boyfriend. Actually boyfriend is better, oops. But weekend with friends are great too.
I miss my friends, and my family. And I miss my boyfriend physically.
Come on, go finish your assignments. Come here, give you some self-hugs. Cheer up darling, you just need to hang on for a bit more. Tiny bit more, Ok? Pat pats.
......smiles
Don't know what I am talking about, actually, brain is like glue after weeks of thesis.
oh dearest why can't you come over and hug me?
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aha, I was being lyrical. So tired these few days... I only really want a good hug from you darling. I realized that Platonic love isn't for me. I prefer physical touch and warmth from my lover. Cuddling is the best invention even before slice bread. Of course I wasn't saying the spiritual part should be absent. Mark Zuckenberg is married yesterday. I really envy them. That was some sort of my dream actually. Two person, working hard for themselves, then got married and walk the journey together. His girlfriend looks like a smart girl, with her own career. It's rare to see millionaire with a partner that doesn't look like movie stars. Maybe I was touch by the pair because they act like really normal people (because they are?). Honestly, looking at them makes me wanna get married. LOL.
Talk about recent things. Life was busy. And i have a lot of things due tomorrow. I feel like a walking zombie now (right, sitting zombie. Haven't move this butt for a week). Somehow I just feel sick to do all the project papers, assignments, thesis. I just want a relax weekend with someone I love. Friends, family or boyfriend. Actually boyfriend is better, oops. But weekend with friends are great too.
I miss my friends, and my family. And I miss my boyfriend physically.
Come on, go finish your assignments. Come here, give you some self-hugs. Cheer up darling, you just need to hang on for a bit more. Tiny bit more, Ok? Pat pats.
......smiles
Don't know what I am talking about, actually, brain is like glue after weeks of thesis.
Monday, April 30, 2012
关于水果
1。从前有个人，喜欢每天吃不同的水果。但他每个水果都只咬一二口就不吃了，他说厌烦了就可以丢掉。突然有一天，他惊觉浪费水果是不好的事情，于是开始尝试把水果吃完。第一第二口很甜很好吃，再咬多几口就觉得有点太甜腻了，再咬一口就只觉得酸涩，吃到最后只感觉到皮的苦涩。最后的记忆最鲜明，于是他开始怀疑水果都是苦的。
2。又有一个人，也是喜欢吃水果的。但是他觉得世界上的水果都不够好。于是他在丛林中找寻他心目中的水果之王。香的嫌不甜，又香又甜的又满身刺，又香又甜又没刺的是别人家里万般珍爱栽种的特异品种。所以到最后，他什么水果都吃不到。
3。这第三个人，吃水果喜欢开水果宴大家一起吃，图那你争我夺的快感。但有时抢香蕉抢得急了，又抢得满脸伤。吃完后还踩到香蕉皮绊倒，落得被宴席上的人取笑。
4。这个人，只喜欢吃橙。他买橙，剥皮，吃橙。
故事完了
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
城市
有没有试过突然发现一首你很喜欢的歌，然后一整天就只听着那首歌。
今天听着苏打绿的《无与伦比的美丽》的时候，发现了《城市》这首歌。
很喜欢它那种小调的感觉。非常非常贴切的一首歌。
听着的时候脑海里就蹦出一座阴阴暗暗的城市，不停地下着梅雨，汽车什么的堵在一起。
行人匆匆忙忙地走在路上，象上了发条的机器。
歌词也很有意思
城市
作詞：青峰
作曲：青峰
這座城市一般
讓你在夢中不停的衰老
人像落葉一般
冬天的空中冰冷的容貌
城市面目猙獰 駕著光速奔跑
我們是沉默機器 對照著時間表
我們就像溫室的花朵
麻木的心 刷白的瞳孔
彩色的臉 混亂的慾望和顫抖
現在是謠言侵略事實的時代
必須偷看哪個誰是不是在偷看
這座城市一般
享受著奢侈卻莫名失落
人像稀釋一般
在鬧區列車上逐漸沉默
我們囚禁在格林威治的規則裡
在數位的銀色浪花中喘不過氣
我們就像溫室的花朵
麻木的心 刷白的瞳孔
彩色的臉 混亂的慾望和顫抖
現在是現在侵略過去的時代
必須悲哀快樂所帶來的更悲哀
這座城市裡面
試著讓自己沒有那麼糟
人像落葉迎面
在一座ㄧ座孤獨島中間
我微笑
今天听着苏打绿的《无与伦比的美丽》的时候，发现了《城市》这首歌。
很喜欢它那种小调的感觉。非常非常贴切的一首歌。
听着的时候脑海里就蹦出一座阴阴暗暗的城市，不停地下着梅雨，汽车什么的堵在一起。
行人匆匆忙忙地走在路上，象上了发条的机器。
歌词也很有意思
作詞：青峰
作曲：青峰
這座城市一般
讓你在夢中不停的衰老
人像落葉一般
冬天的空中冰冷的容貌
城市面目猙獰 駕著光速奔跑
我們是沉默機器 對照著時間表
我們就像溫室的花朵
麻木的心 刷白的瞳孔
彩色的臉 混亂的慾望和顫抖
現在是謠言侵略事實的時代
必須偷看哪個誰是不是在偷看
這座城市一般
享受著奢侈卻莫名失落
人像稀釋一般
在鬧區列車上逐漸沉默
我們囚禁在格林威治的規則裡
在數位的銀色浪花中喘不過氣
我們就像溫室的花朵
麻木的心 刷白的瞳孔
彩色的臉 混亂的慾望和顫抖
現在是現在侵略過去的時代
必須悲哀快樂所帶來的更悲哀
這座城市裡面
試著讓自己沒有那麼糟
人像落葉迎面
在一座ㄧ座孤獨島中間
我微笑
Monday, March 26, 2012
Waiting
I am very sure that you wouldn't see this.
I am waiting for you to fully bloom to be a beautiful flower and I have the confident that you will.
And I feel really bad that I can't help you in anyway.
I feel like the only thing I can do is wait. Give you more space and time, take less from you.
It is time for me to be your support.
Jia you for you and me :)
I am waiting for you to fully bloom to be a beautiful flower and I have the confident that you will.
And I feel really bad that I can't help you in anyway.
I feel like the only thing I can do is wait. Give you more space and time, take less from you.
It is time for me to be your support.
Jia you for you and me :)
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Ah, 6th week.
And i have 8 more weeks in UM.
Life is busy so far. Today i went to career fair and hoping they will be my future boss.
Sigh. I feel so reluctant to grow up... Out of past, present and future, i like present the best.
Future is so full of unsure stuff. How i will fare, how i can manage my family, love life and work.
Really sound challenging. I try not to think about it too much because i believe i'll have the way and i can work it out :) Just want to savour this special and beautiful time now.
Smile and you'll be happy
Life is busy so far. Today i went to career fair and hoping they will be my future boss.
Sigh. I feel so reluctant to grow up... Out of past, present and future, i like present the best.
Future is so full of unsure stuff. How i will fare, how i can manage my family, love life and work.
Really sound challenging. I try not to think about it too much because i believe i'll have the way and i can work it out :) Just want to savour this special and beautiful time now.
Smile and you'll be happy
Monday, February 20, 2012
How come it is almost the end of February?!
This year is really a lively year. I started the year with exam, so that explains the empty memory about January.
And I sloth and lazy for the next 2 weeks, that's Chinese New Year. (What's with that look? Aw come on, have some sympathy)
Then comes a lot of work for Henkel Innovation Challenge 5. Weeks of preparation and the final show down on last week. Honestly, it was nerve wreaking in a fun way. So so tired on that 2 day and afterward I walk around like zombie for 2 days while keep on praying that Saturday reach faster. Then after all the laundry and everything, finally here I am with some time for blogging. (I am just too tired to start on studying)
Of course Valentine's is burned due to the competition, but like what people says, with the right guy everyday will be Valentine's
That's UM from 46th floor of TM tower. Henkel office just nice look at us...
So after all the excitement, games, good food and good bed, Hock Chai and I got the 2nd Place. I think God heard my prayer and he heard Hock Chai's too, that's why he have this arrangement so we can concentrate on what we really wants. I would like to win the competition only for travelling. But travelling shouldn't be my priority now. I should really work on those samples and figure them out. Hahaha.
And we still won a pair of Ipod Nano O v O
Gosh, I still have so many things to finish on thesis @@
And I sloth and lazy for the next 2 weeks, that's Chinese New Year. (What's with that look? Aw come on, have some sympathy)
Then comes a lot of work for Henkel Innovation Challenge 5. Weeks of preparation and the final show down on last week. Honestly, it was nerve wreaking in a fun way. So so tired on that 2 day and afterward I walk around like zombie for 2 days while keep on praying that Saturday reach faster. Then after all the laundry and everything, finally here I am with some time for blogging. (I am just too tired to start on studying)
Of course Valentine's is burned due to the competition, but like what people says, with the right guy everyday will be Valentine's
Dearest Hock Chai plop this cute little figurines into my bag secretly ^__^
That's UM from 46th floor of TM tower. Henkel office just nice look at us...
With our very nice event organizer Aliza at Italianies. She has a laughter so contagious that we will laugh with her once she start laughing.
The Vietnam teams and Indonesia team. They are really cute and chatty.
Group photo with KLCC
The Malaysia teams. Tey and Woon are from UM too!
So after all the excitement, games, good food and good bed, Hock Chai and I got the 2nd Place. I think God heard my prayer and he heard Hock Chai's too, that's why he have this arrangement so we can concentrate on what we really wants. I would like to win the competition only for travelling. But travelling shouldn't be my priority now. I should really work on those samples and figure them out. Hahaha.
And we still won a pair of Ipod Nano O v O
Gosh, I still have so many things to finish on thesis @@
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
2012 Dragon Year Stamp
Honestly, I've never seen anything as crazy as this since the last time I saw people rushing to get into Padini RM5 sales. I was up at 7am and took LRT to Pasar Seni. I arrived at 8.15am and I was really happy because there's no one there yet. Yeah right! A nice old uncle told me that the line is at the side and when i got there it was like this :
This is the stuff i've got. A couple of posters and RM5 stamps for Yoke Ting and I, 3 RM3 stamps, 2 sheets of normal stamps and First Day Cover envelopes. I stuck the stamp onto the envelope and chopped the 'Warisan Tenunan' postmark. While pasting the eager crowd kept asking about the details. Turned out most of them are stamp noobs like me too...
The 'oh-la-la' golden laser printed RM5 (ouch) stamp on FDC envelope and the pamphlet cover.
As if that wasn't crazy enough, when the time reach 8.30am (the official time post office open) the line is like this behind me O__O It was as if it has no ending O__O
So i waited for 2 and half hours before i got into the office itself. Luckily the post staff are smart enough this time and limit 3 sets and 1 folder for each person only. But the folder sold out at like the 80+th person and there is this middle-age guy pretty upset and complained loudly about it. Still, finished is finished, so bye-bye folder.
This is the stuff i've got. A couple of posters and RM5 stamps for Yoke Ting and I, 3 RM3 stamps, 2 sheets of normal stamps and First Day Cover envelopes. I stuck the stamp onto the envelope and chopped the 'Warisan Tenunan' postmark. While pasting the eager crowd kept asking about the details. Turned out most of them are stamp noobs like me too...
RM3 Stamp on FDC envelope and postage mark:
And i reached hostel at 12pm, spending 4+ hours on buying some stamps... I guess it is worth the price thought, just not too sure that i'll spend so much money on stamps again... It's time to study now... exams are hours away :(
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Happy New Year!
Oh it's another year, i guess...
Meaning that i have finally pass my 23th birthday... It seems like when you are getting older, you have less mood for it. All i want to do on my birthday is sleep. Hahaa, nothing special happened this year. 2011 seems like a really plain year. I learned a lot of thing in 2011. Even if not a lot of special things happened. I learned how to be more relaxed, learned how not to be too possessive and aggressive, learned to keep things to myself, started to pursue what i want actively instead of waiting for it to happen.
Back few years then I was like a crazy person and gone through a lot of pressures and lows. But in 2011 it was all good. I started to actually enjoy 'doing nothing but wasting my time life'. People always say you should start early and aim high if you want to fly high. But the facts is you should stop a while and have some fun once a while. It's really sad if one doesn't even know how to make themselves happy. Yeah, i was kind of sad. In 2012, I'll get more productive (i guess) and learn the equilibrium of life.
I have a feeling 2012 will be a GOOD year. *self-hugsss*
Meaning that i have finally pass my 23th birthday... It seems like when you are getting older, you have less mood for it. All i want to do on my birthday is sleep. Hahaa, nothing special happened this year. 2011 seems like a really plain year. I learned a lot of thing in 2011. Even if not a lot of special things happened. I learned how to be more relaxed, learned how not to be too possessive and aggressive, learned to keep things to myself, started to pursue what i want actively instead of waiting for it to happen.
Back few years then I was like a crazy person and gone through a lot of pressures and lows. But in 2011 it was all good. I started to actually enjoy 'doing nothing but wasting my time life'. People always say you should start early and aim high if you want to fly high. But the facts is you should stop a while and have some fun once a while. It's really sad if one doesn't even know how to make themselves happy. Yeah, i was kind of sad. In 2012, I'll get more productive (i guess) and learn the equilibrium of life.
I have a feeling 2012 will be a GOOD year. *self-hugsss*
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