原來你是真的可以和一個人在一起太久。
久到一個程度你已經對於“幸福”麻木了。
現在像是打RPG打到瓶頸，怪獸都很強但你的伴侶不知道有沒有在努力。
我很倔強，很多事可以更理性更寬容的。
但是我不甘心，我希望我是他努力得來的勝利品，而不是剛巧人生最容易的選擇。
我以為在一起越久，他至少會對我更坦白一點。
還是一樣，不用期待他對我說心裡的話。
也不用期待他給予承諾。
他對我一直都是以動作照顧。嘴上功夫過了這麼久，是一點長進都沒有的。
是我太過苛求嗎？其實他作為男生已經是九十幾分。不煙不酒不留情又顧家。
但是這種焦慮不安的心情是怎樣？
我不知道未來會怎樣，但是我害怕我會開始貪心而離開他。
是該一個人去旅行了。我和家人和他在一起太久了。
想離開的遠遠的。自己一個人的旅行。
不需要聯絡他。
She said why she can never have a sister that care about her.
Pfft, what a joke.
9 out of 10 times when you talk to her, she is rude. It is impossible to have meaningful conversation with her.
She is never supportive, most often cynical. Self withdrawn.
She only likes mom.
She is never on my side.
So hard to deal with her.
Okay, I hate her. Mainly her attitude.
No wonder she can't get a boyfriend.
I don't even want to give her the suggestion I give to random strangers. About anything in fucking life.
Because she is so defensive in everything.
She cannot fucking accept failure.
When she is back she takes center stage, she have to be the sun. I mean I am fine if you are tired, rest and get better.
Stop being an asshole because you are tired.
If you are this tired. Don't come back. Stay in your fucking room. Be grumpy to the wall.
Okay. Ranting done.
I can go back to pretend that I like her for another year.
Ohya, just by genetics. Most probably I am a fucking asshole too.
新的一年，现在已经不许愿了。因为事情要亲手做到才算数，做不到的许愿也没用。（你看多么矫情）其实也不是，是因为身边都是我爱及爱我的人，所以心里已经非常满足。
去年，买了房升了职。希望今年也可以一样跨大步前进。
阿咩会和我结婚吗？再看看。呵。
希望父母还是一样快快乐乐，偶尔念念我。
实在是非常满足，2017是个好年。
2018, 我来了。
