Recently

There's SO much to say recently... haha

Firstly i finally bought a phoooonnneee!!! Mah baby is a Samsung Galaxy Mini.

I thought i am going to be happy when i can switch from my old phone. Strangely i feel a pang of loss when i got the new phone. It's a bit like, aww, i miss the cute little small phone design and the new phone feels so WEIRD in the palm, and the ringtone is WEIRD and the alarm is also WEIRD.

Ended up I am more nostalgic than I thought I am. I adapt to change slowly no matter how bad the old phone had been... It had been in a really bad condition and typing msg is like a chore... But I still love it even after i bought the new phone... There are just too much of cute stuff i need to keep inside it...

It's too late now, i need to go to sleep now... Nite everyone.

here is mah baby

Quarrel

It is good to quarrel sometimes really...

It clarifies the disagreement. If the quarrel is rational...

倦怠期

倦怠期，生人勿近。

有时候觉得烦了累了，也不想和别人说。

说了又怎样……能解决事情吗。

说给你听，你又了解吗？

OK. I know I am being irrational now.

After thinking a bit, i know i wasn't being man-handled.

Meh is a good guy, I know that, deep down.

But I was just constantly angry against him because of like 2 weeks of not so much contact?

I was being irrational and snappy, I know.

And I snapped at Mom's word for nothing just now.

Why my anger just so near boiling point these days?

Am I going to be an emo kid even thou teenager has nothing to do with me now?

Lord, please help me to feel fulfill and at peace, even when I am alone.

Please help me to be patient and kind to my family.

Please show me the way to be emotionally independent. Amen.

Confusion

Sometimes I am so confuse with myself and you.

You always tell me that: 'That's the way I work.'

I couldn't help but to wonder, am I being man-handled?

Maybe I am acting like immature brat, but all the short conversation and no-contact over the holiday makes me feel so insecure. I know you're busy and really under a lot of stress and I understand how bad publishing papers can be. I am trying to be understanding and hopefully become a support for you. Just that I really don't know how long I can stand to play this one-man-act before i crack up.

Please honey, contribute a bit in the conversation.

I don't want our relationship to be a dead puddle of water like this.

Please come up with some ideas. Nothing fancy really.

Just convince me that you still care... Please.